"The truth is that I welcome the chaos in my life. The everyday problems that come and go like the waves of the ocean. My mind is preoccupied with them from the small insignificant ones to the ones that blindside me and leave me breathless. I welcome the chaos because I become terrified when everything in my life lines up perfectly. When the odds are in my favor. When everything goes according to plan. When I have every reason to be happy. Those moments terrify me because I know that my mind is no longer preoccupied with my problems and I am left alone to face my demons. Nothing to blame. Just me and my own demons."
Anonymous asked:"But i feel guilt every time i dream about you. But for me it is a treasured dream. Anyway what i'm hoping is to see you happy if ever i would have the chance to see you. Keep Smiling and Good Luck to your work. Also i hope you don't read this. I don't even know why i keep visiting this page of yours. haha baliw lng. :)"
Did you have a preceding post before this? o.o
Anyway, I get dreams of you too. Most of them, I couldn’t remember, but there were ones, a handful that I could still remember every details because it was too vivid. It’s funny sometimes how I wanted to sleep more if I happen to have a good dream about you. And every time that happens, I honestly don’t know what I should feel about it. But then I know, I was happy that you were in it.
There are some days where I wonder how you are, what you’re doing. And just hope that all is well for you.
Haha I just realized talking to you like this somehow feels nostalgic..
Thank you for still remembering me. I am glad. We will see each other again. Pansinin mo ko nun ha? :P
Take care and good luck in every thing that you do. :)
I can’t swim, so if you toss me in the middle of the ocean, I will drown and struggle, flapping my arms and kicking my legs to find a way back up, desperately trying to escape the saltiness of the ocean water. But, if the ocean is surrounded by thought of you, your eyes, your smile, your laugh, your voice, every ounce of you, then by god, let me drown. I would never want to escape the sweetness of you.